Afraid of looking in your eyes

I´m smiling, laughing, but it´s a lie,inside me only darkness.No way left for me to hideand so I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.Sometimes I´m running through the rain,so that no one can see my pain.Longing for you,while I´m trying to keep myself away from you.,but still I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.For the people around me, I try to be like any day,hear myself say the things I always say.But inside me there´s nothing the same.Inside me I´m torn, just by hearing someone call your nameand so I´m still afraid of looking in your eyes.Yes, it´s true, I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.Because you can look inside,there would be no way left to hide.You could see there´s is still love, there are still feelings just for you.But what if it hurts you to see this,I don´t want to hurt you anymoreand so I´m afraid of looking in your eyes

Frozen Heart and Blazing Blood

You know, I wanted to be with you until the end of days.I wanted to make you smile and to hold you when you were falling. In the end... I could not. Your problems were too much for both of us to handle and so, after I noticed that I could not help you, I was depressed. The fact that I was mightless made me even weaker and I let go of you. I should have tried harder, I should have listened.Now you are gone and I am still enchained, bound to you by myself. I will not let these love-chains be destroyed. I will not fail in loving you, because for me, you are perfect. I do not love you, because I need you. I need you, because I love you. I will always love you, even if love also means to be able to let go.

Silence at all

How to get out, I can’t find a wayAlthough it’s beyond our power to stayI urge you to talk to me and explainHow to bearing this longing an painBut all I hear is silence at allEvery time I tried to call:How would you call what you feel for me?How many thoughts do you want me to see?Don’t you need answers for what’s going on?Don’t you want to know, what’s right and what’s wrong?What should we do, to get out of here?Are you in ignorant or are you in fear?I begging you to talk to me, it’s about time!I’m ready to tell you this feelings of mineCause its hard going to sleepWith all those things we tried to keep

There is a fight deep inside

Fight against my feelings deep inside,while in my minds eye all this pictures of you tumble around.Feelings that shouldn´t be there,are getting me weak again.But I remember, what this feelings can do,how they can hurt you and me.Sometimes it feels like running in circles,just no way out.But no matter what I try there are still this feelings for you deep inside,The feeling that I wanna be close to you and the other feeling that tells me not to do.But no matter what will be my heart will always follow you and theres is nothing I can do about it.… Although there is still this fight deep inside.

Loving Angels

An Angel once descended from aboveand wrapped the lucky me in it's warming wings.It took not long for me to fall in loveinto the gorgeous princess that's the kings.I never wanted to believe, but could predict...the Angel's gone, ascended.Leaving me, the one that's now an Angel addictdoomed to find myself abandoned

Was ist Liebe?

Die Liebe verstehen... ja, das würd ich gern.Doch leider bleibt dies mir ganz fern.Das ist wohl eins von diesen UnterfangenDie man von Anfang an kann begraben.Sie kann dich glücklich machen, ganz bestimmt.Dennoch ist sie oft auch anders gesinnt.Da lässt sie dich die schlimmsten Qualen leidenund du kennst keinen Weg, um das zu meiden.Zusammenhalten muss man können, so sagt man.Wenn das so einfach wäre, das wär fein.Die wahre Liebe, so scheint mir, gibt's nur im Roman.Zur langen Zweisamkeit ist Liebe allein wohl zu klein.Wieso kann man sich nicht nur mit Liebe zufriedengeben?Warum erschwert man sich auf diese Art das Leben?Die Liebe dann könnt so viel besser sein.Ist das nicht irgendwie gemein?

Love him like I do..

Love him like I doGiving honor to you firstThe Pastor, the churchMy folks and friendsListen to these wordsSee God saved me (yeah)From myself when no one else was aroundAnd it was only by his graceHis mercy His favorCause I know I don't deserveAll the love he show (oh)And how he let me know (oh)He never gonna leave my sideThat's why I love him like I doSee I got a testimony how He saved my soulWhen I was just a sinner left in the coldGave me a second chanceSaved me from myselfCame to my rescueWhen I needed helpYou want to know why I love him like I doCause when my enemies said I was thruHe took me from the bottomAnd put me on the topHe laid his hands on meAnd now I can't be stoppedThat's why I love him like I doSomebody told me that we overcome by our testimonyBet you wouldn't believe how doubt and fear used to paralyze meGod's hand led me thru the testAnd he brought out the very best of meAnd now I never forgetTo tell the world what you mean to meThat's why I love him like I doLet me tell you why I loveBecause he been so good meHe takes care of meHe keeps love me yeahI love him