Afraid of looking in your eyes

I´m smiling, laughing, but it´s a lie,inside me only darkness.No way left for me to hideand so I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.Sometimes I´m running through the rain,so that no one can see my pain.Longing for you,while I´m trying to keep myself away from you.,but still I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.For the people around me, I try to be like any day,hear myself say the things I always say.But inside me there´s nothing the same.Inside me I´m torn, just by hearing someone call your nameand so I´m still afraid of looking in your eyes.Yes, it´s true, I´m afraid of looking in your eyes.Because you can look inside,there would be no way left to hide.You could see there´s is still love, there are still feelings just for you.But what if it hurts you to see this,I don´t want to hurt you anymoreand so I´m afraid of looking in your eyes